Just got home from coll late , seems like everyone's asleep . Went to look at my dogs and sigh , one of my shih tzu might go blind . She got herself a lil scratch in her eye last weekend and i didn't noticed it until tuesday and we had the vet to come over to take a look at her on Wednesday , he did supply some med to apply on the eye but until today it just doesn't get any better and i'm worried if she might really go blind on her left .

After i entered college , i spent lesser time with both my dogs and lesser walk at the park together , lesser patting , lesser playing around , lesser messing up the house and its been 3 years plus including this year since it all started . 

Everytime i come home i'm either tired , exhausted or rushing to do my work , i know i got myself some reason not to spend more time with my dogs but damn do i really love and care for them at all sometimes i wonder. Even when i we go for a walk its like 3 weeks a time and sometimes not even once in a month . When i wake up early in the morning again i'm rushing to do my stuffs and all  and then prepare to leave to coll but is that a reason ? Or am i just lazy ..

I do love them and now they're getting older and older and i'm getting busier and busier and i actually felt like i've been abandoning them all these years . Everytime i pass by them or leave the house i would wave them bye , love you , etc. etc. but i wouldn't spend extra time stopping by pat them hug them or etc and thats what i do everytime i leave the house and they would just stare at me like they knew what was happening , like i have no extra time for them . Even everytime i approach them they would stand and wave their tails excitingly thinking i would take them for  walk but sadly it didn't happen and i just walk back into the house after patting and chatting them for some time.

I've treated them unfairly and they should be pampered from the start . Sigh ...what would i do if she went blind ... I should spend more time with them and bringing them to the park every weekend on the exact time from now and i hope i'm really gonna do that . I don't wanna loose them so much i'd many experiences of loosing many of my pets from many years of experience , one last year , which was the longest dog i've had even before i went to school , thinking of it i cant bear to loose them both now . but What i've been most afraid of is them thinking that i don't love them anymore , sigh . If only they understand what i say , yeah if only they understand Human Language then i can tell them how much i love them . If not i can learn the Dog Language . where to ... ? 

Anyway Love you two no matter what .. and YUMI  dont go blindddddd !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T______________________________________________________________T