I've been wandering off somewhere lately ..my mind ecspecially , cannot focus on one thing itself with too many things bugging me and i need to learn how to balance them up !! And so i sent my resume and demoreel to R&H , and i remembered the very second , when my finger was laid to rest on the left click button of the mouse , ready to click on SEND and then i clicked on it and felt i lifted 1000tons of my shoulder , then i went on telling my friend " I sent it , I sent it etc etc" I was really excited XD

I'll laugh at myself 10years from now if i ever remember how nervous i was when applying for my first job . I checked every single details , phrase and spelling of the message and resume which i was about to send , I checked over and over again , again and AGAIN repeatedly like i'd never get bored of it because i'm afraid of typing the wrong thing , but its good to look back how excited you were when applying for your 1st job , after all , the first job is very important to me , what would i turn out to be , where will i be , i don't wanna make a single mistake if i can avoid it.

Its reaching 31st June , we'll be going for the trailer for our FINAL short , try to make it look as good as possible , then after the graduation we'll make the best out of it !

I realized there are lots of things to keep you busy as you're growing older , and i really like the way they work . I don't get bored at home like last time , and i don't sleep all day long unless i'm really drained out . I don't sit down infront of the TV watching it all day long , there are fun's and the no fun's in these process . Wherelse i spend longer time in college usually up to 2AM to try finish up the project asap , meanwhile fooling around , making lots of noise , and next time i'm going to miss all these . At the same time , i miss the old days when i used to be very free as well , no worries and all , always thought if i could do any better at that time it would be just great .

Some of you might have heard this song before , or most of you , but i just wanna share ~ Its not something i want to relate to , just something to share ~

Here's the Link (http://www.imeem.com/mixshow/music/i-fBKiQQ/kate-dearaugo-heaven-full-ballad-version/)

Kate Dearaugo-Heaven

Oh - thinkin' about our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothin' can take you away from me
We been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more

[CHORUS:]
And baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And lovin' is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
Isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Pick you up when you're feelin' down
Now nothin' can change what you mean to me
There's a lot that I can say
Just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way

[CHORUS:]
N' baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And lovin' is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
Isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've been waitin' for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
I'll be standin' there by you

[CHORUS:]
And baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And lovin' is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
Isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Ohh, Ahh..We're in heaven

Lastly , Teh-O , Wye Ee , I'm not emo or anything i'm perfectly normal okay "Jeng Jeng Jeng" ~~

The echo itself is already a beautiful thing . I'm not bored of it , in fact , i would like to hear more , and if i could only listen to forever , be apart of it , that would be the most wonderful thing that would happen .

Its latteeee yes i know ..3:55AM 

and Thanks to Danny , listen to me talk blablabla and giving me priceless advices also , i really don't know what to say already , just .. Thank You , lol .

 Teh-O  , Thanks la , I was shocked you don't really know much bout me at least you tried to give  comment and intro the correct person ?? LOL Thank You too !!

Finally Wye Ee , Thanks for listening to all my crap also ~ And ur comment was really straight forward it made me cramp when i look it it , but ..anyways , you did a good job so i shall reward you with a BIG Thank You XD Hahaha

Finally , Danny if you see that this post's format shares equality as your newest post at your blog , you're not wrong , Something i learnt from your post too  , Its really easier to credit like this  

End .(' v ').

Look what i saw again last weekend at the pet shop , its a Prairie Dog , I've seen him/her the 2nd time and this time it seems to recognize me .. anyway this time its much more active than the last time i saw it , its like telling me " Buy me ! Buy me ! "

I searched over the net and found out that Prairie Dogs have very friendly approach and it seems to treat human

as one of their kind even at their first meeting , they also produce barks like dogs and i think that's how they get their name ,

They're Vegans , they answer to barks and chirps , when you call them by their name they'll come to you , also when they meet 

their kind at the first meeting they KISS !!!

Here's One i got from WIKI !

dot dot dot .. tommorow's father's day and i haven't done anything yet , and i can still hahaha XD , sigh , our final project's coming to an end soon , and i'll have to leave TOA for goodness sake , that's sad actually , and happy ...and sad and happy and sad ..blablabla ..then i just started listening to Acoustic Cafe's "Last Carnival" , so inspirational (-O-) bye bye TOA ....

What am i waiting for ? I'm waiting for something that'll never happen , and i know it. 

Isn't it silly to still wait but knowing its not going to happen ? why this stupidity ? I can't seem to get back to how i used to be before this . easy to forget what i wanna remember , hard to forget , if i have a choice it would be best i'd never knew you ..

My "Wish Balloon" , did this outside the 3D Lab while waiting for other class to end ~

Today's a very enchanting day , here it goes , 

My brother went to the watch shop today so i followed him  and then as i entered the shop my eyes looked around and an instant spark flashed over my eyes and i caught a glimpse of a bright golden object right behind the glass . I walked towards the glass table , its a golden pocket watch contained in the glass table and that first glimpse of it stole my thought away for a minute . I could hardly describe how special the feelings it gave me that instant and then the whole of it melted into me and then i was staring blankly at it . The beauty of it is indescribable and it seems so precious and (Ugggghh) . 

So i asked the lady if i could take a look at it , so she unlocked the glass table and took up the pocket watch and slowly placed it onto the table , be careful not to scratch it , and then i lifted the pocket watch with my hands and i flipped open the cover , it's really beautiful and it seems like a treasure to me , i looked at every single detail of it carefully , every little detail seems so special and captivating , yes its a charm , as if i've fallen in love with it.

"Just a pocket watch onli ma , look so old , like for uncle onli " my brother suddenly said . Nooooooooooooooooo He just crushed my  fantasy T___T Hmm hmm ...

Wachaaaaa !!! If only i can jump up and freeze on air with my karate leg facing my brother's face with the camera turning around the 2 of us 360% with the shop lady shock expression freezed as well and HIYEAKKKKK !!!! Kadooommm kick him out of the watch shop T_T and the pocket watch is mine ..Guess the lady too freaked out edi XD

Anyway in the end we left the shop and i missed that pocket watch now T_T 

I was supposed to sleep bout an hour ago , but i dragged it till now ...Nooooo ....I'm going to bedddd and i shall dream of the Pocket watch !!! Tick tock tick tock tick tock .

Whyyyyyy T_T

Oooooohh its soo sooo soo tiringgg i just came back from drink and Tze Liang's Birthday party there are lots of people i don't know : < Anyway its really fun , haven't been to a friend's birthday party for quite some time ..brrr....I don't know what to type anymore I'm so tired tired tired and I'm going to Sleeepp ..Good Nighttt U.U

Is there anyway to stop this horrible feeling inside of meeeee ...(If you don't get it it's okay , I'm talking to myself ) Its very distracting i can't concentrate on my workkk (#,#)

And I've just woke up from my drag sleep and its very tiring but also very cooling and easy since i've no rush to go to college today .. Its afternoon now when i woke up and i still find the outside like the early morning i used to open my eyes on cuz i woke up on listening to Kotaro Oshio's music ,hmm.. Been learning a couple of songs of his these few days and i've totally forgotten in the past how i'd left out such amazing music , Yeah and lately there are so many things going on in the lab , i've met new people and made new friends , then i'd stay over at the lab till midnight to finish up my stuffs while slapping my face all over facebook then i would start annoying people eventually how did i turn out to be like that .. i couldn't believe myself when i wake up from sleep and thinking bout the night before i'm a totally different person from day bright to night lifeand it doesn't make any sense  anyway blablabla i still had all the fun i want ~~

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo   I forgotten my best friend's birthday !!!!  HOW Could this HAPPENNNNNNN ...........................................................

Just got home from coll late , seems like everyone's asleep . Went to look at my dogs and sigh , one of my shih tzu might go blind . She got herself a lil scratch in her eye last weekend and i didn't noticed it until tuesday and we had the vet to come over to take a look at her on Wednesday , he did supply some med to apply on the eye but until today it just doesn't get any better and i'm worried if she might really go blind on her left .

After i entered college , i spent lesser time with both my dogs and lesser walk at the park together , lesser patting , lesser playing around , lesser messing up the house and its been 3 years plus including this year since it all started . 

Everytime i come home i'm either tired , exhausted or rushing to do my work , i know i got myself some reason not to spend more time with my dogs but damn do i really love and care for them at all sometimes i wonder. Even when i we go for a walk its like 3 weeks a time and sometimes not even once in a month . When i wake up early in the morning again i'm rushing to do my stuffs and all  and then prepare to leave to coll but is that a reason ? Or am i just lazy ..

I do love them and now they're getting older and older and i'm getting busier and busier and i actually felt like i've been abandoning them all these years . Everytime i pass by them or leave the house i would wave them bye , love you , etc. etc. but i wouldn't spend extra time stopping by pat them hug them or etc and thats what i do everytime i leave the house and they would just stare at me like they knew what was happening , like i have no extra time for them . Even everytime i approach them they would stand and wave their tails excitingly thinking i would take them for  walk but sadly it didn't happen and i just walk back into the house after patting and chatting them for some time.

I've treated them unfairly and they should be pampered from the start . Sigh ...what would i do if she went blind ... I should spend more time with them and bringing them to the park every weekend on the exact time from now and i hope i'm really gonna do that . I don't wanna loose them so much i'd many experiences of loosing many of my pets from many years of experience , one last year , which was the longest dog i've had even before i went to school , thinking of it i cant bear to loose them both now . but What i've been most afraid of is them thinking that i don't love them anymore , sigh . If only they understand what i say , yeah if only they understand Human Language then i can tell them how much i love them . If not i can learn the Dog Language . where to ... ? 

Anyway Love you two no matter what .. and YUMI  dont go blindddddd !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T______________________________________________________________T